Hey 33!
Ha ha i can't believe that i'm already reached this age (10 days ago).
And comparing to what i've done with my life, it's.... questionable.
This past week i said "i'm gonna work from home since i can't concentrate well the whole week before - but probably because i was on a very strict diet that my mind went diet as well."
But what happened was i had terrible sleeping hours, and barely work. Spend most of my time watching series. Wow! 33 years old and still the same me. I almost afraid i went south as what happened last time in 2018. Non-stop binging on tv series.
Good thing is, i am being kind to my "child" self and as the result, today is Sunday evening and I already start to roll again with work. Or what Dr. Nicole LePera from Holistic Psychologist named as "Re-Parenting."
I realized one thing! I really need to learn how to put pattern into my life. Pattern = Routines
Self-control has always been my issued. Not only during pleasure time, but also during productivity time.
I woke up "10 more minutes".
I get up "30 more minutes after browsing IG".
I got off from work "2 hours later than my originally planned time."
I stopped watching series after "7 more episodes".
I wrote journal "30 more minutes".
I went to bed & slept after "4 hours of youtubing".
I was back to exercising after "5 overweight kgs" or after "I feel like it".
I will be going out after "I feel ready or confident enough".
I started to unplug and take things easier "2 months later when I feel burnt out".
Sometimes i wonder, has anyone had the same problem as me but then they had their breakthrough and put all these behind and transforming into a better person now?
If yes, I would really love to hear the story as my role model.
Meanwhile, let me try to wrap this writing up after "30 minutes" and start doing better for myself.
Cheers,
Aileen who is now kinder to myself, understanding the concept of it and trying to start doing better in taking care of myself.
(13.10.19)
And comparing to what i've done with my life, it's.... questionable.
This past week i said "i'm gonna work from home since i can't concentrate well the whole week before - but probably because i was on a very strict diet that my mind went diet as well."
But what happened was i had terrible sleeping hours, and barely work. Spend most of my time watching series. Wow! 33 years old and still the same me. I almost afraid i went south as what happened last time in 2018. Non-stop binging on tv series.
Good thing is, i am being kind to my "child" self and as the result, today is Sunday evening and I already start to roll again with work. Or what Dr. Nicole LePera from Holistic Psychologist named as "Re-Parenting."
I realized one thing! I really need to learn how to put pattern into my life. Pattern = Routines
Self-control has always been my issued. Not only during pleasure time, but also during productivity time.
I woke up "10 more minutes".
I get up "30 more minutes after browsing IG".
I got off from work "2 hours later than my originally planned time."
I stopped watching series after "7 more episodes".
I wrote journal "30 more minutes".
I went to bed & slept after "4 hours of youtubing".
I was back to exercising after "5 overweight kgs" or after "I feel like it".
I will be going out after "I feel ready or confident enough".
I started to unplug and take things easier "2 months later when I feel burnt out".
EVERYTHING. I've been always put every single thing in my life into PENDING.
But my age keeps rolling. Time has never stopped.
Sometimes i wonder, has anyone had the same problem as me but then they had their breakthrough and put all these behind and transforming into a better person now?
If yes, I would really love to hear the story as my role model.
Meanwhile, let me try to wrap this writing up after "30 minutes" and start doing better for myself.
Cheers,
Aileen who is now kinder to myself, understanding the concept of it and trying to start doing better in taking care of myself.
(13.10.19)
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